hahaha. What can i do but to laugh and cry smultaneously..

it takes quite a bit of insanity to do that..

yea, it was sunday.The day EMO struck me.

and i feel down...really down...and i have been crying uncontrollably for no dubious reasons..

i cry when i'm eating..doing my work..when i come home..before i go to bed and even when i wake up. That's like super active tear ducts...

it feels really shitty lah!

and i hug traffic light posts on my way home.

Thinking that they're my only companion.

Sometimes i really develop feelings for these cold steel structures that stand motionlessly.

I thank them for being there for me. =)

and then i know i have to get home thus the temporary separtion from the light posts..

I force myself to sprint and cry at the same time.

it makes you super uncomfortable and squeezes your lungs.so i can cry even more.

for some moments, i feel alleviated from my emotional problems..

but it all comes back....

after some time..

and fuck jealousy! =( and being made use of!

HATE IT!

FUCK IT!

i need to get back to my essay.oh yes, dinner first..it's 2355..DAMN!

just LOOK at my desktop.

yes, i need to escape someway or another.