i don't know why but i'm not someone who would count her blessings.

but i were to do just that, this weekend would have been a lovely one for me =)


thank you for that.
on the other hand, something bad happened to my family.


and for some reason, it involves the supernatural which you can't justify..and the only thing you can do is to worry.. how sucky is that? and it just spoils the weekend..

by the way, i've just been lectured by my parents for the gatherings i've been going out to, too frequently. and for the fact that i come home late, i get twice the severity of the lecture. has something to do with attracting the undesirable. (be it men or spirits) how nice. =/

i felt my head pounding and my body significantly heavier throughout the lecture.. so much as to the extent that i had to shut my eyes and bear the unbearable.

Until i couldn't take it any further, I went straight to my bedroom sat in front of my computer and forced it out. I felt that it was destroying my life. I wanted to extort the pain and all the unhappiness that it brought that was brooding inside me. I cried it out. And i feel pain once again. My tears were warm. My hands were cold.

it is upon human sensibility that what is human in us survives.
sad but largely true.