hmm, not much has happened since last friday. still lingering is the elation of my attendance..i'm going for classes tomorrow too. =) hopefully this thrust doesn't die out before semester ends.
MY HEAD'S HIGH IN THE CLOUDS!

How's everyone doing? Oh yea, I made up my mind about something and i'm quite happy about it. I mean, instead of avoiding it, i'm finally taking a shot and somehow i feel that a load's off me.
Just see how things go..Just hope he won't blame me for it.
=)
And i'm sorry too if i haven't been very spontaneous in reciprocating. I'm not like that. Give me some time.. Or maybe you would like to know the backgrounder. It's strange since we did not start out how it should have. And thus, missed out on the foundations. Tell me I'm not the only one who is feeling like that. You even asked me what are my hobbies.. Says alot about the fundamentals of our relationship. I'm not saying I know alot about you..Cos frankly I don't..But just wanna highlight to you about where this is going...

Yup. And i do love the idea of kissing in the rain. Okay, that's random. But yea. Just had to spit it out...somewhere...

I am so glad I attended the 10am lecture today! It was a guest lecture by our dean, Venka on a very intriguing topic "Photography and the Ordinary". Thought he did a very insightful approach to photographs, the aesthetization of it, versus consumerist ideologies, ethical issues, fantasies, the perceiving of oneself, et cetera. I'm super happy I went for Sheow Tong's 10am-12nn class. hahaa, i think i mentioned that already..

I feel very accomplished somehow..

Cause I haven't been able to wake up for 10am lectures, I thought 1 good way would be not to sleep on thursday night. GRINS! How can one be unable to wake up when she has not even fallen asleep? genius

On top of that I did Jeffrey's museum summary. Draft a few ideas on the Report Writing. And sketched some drawings for the marketing project's postcard and poster. Still long way to go.. But yea, it'll soon be over.

Achievement of the week (wk 11): Full attendance for every lesson held.

Goal for next week (wk 12): Full attendance again. (will be more difficult cause 2 lessons were cancelled in week 11 =P)*anyway, i think French films ROCKKKKK!!!! the above picture is a film called French Revolution. But I doubt it'll be shown in sg..it's in NY! =( it deals with amoral themes, but who gives a s***, just practise self-censorship!

the art of magic. foreign films. arts and censorship. tools, brushes, glues and their maintenance. museums. anaphasa technical rider.
ok, someone tell me to breathe!

oh, no...wait---teach me to breathe!

I so can't wait for the holidays to come!

I'd like to see what is the difference between a friend and a dunno-what.

Had a long msn conversation with amanda and she said that I have this HUGE impenetrable facade, cover thing. Which is true...I don't even know whether I'm being true to myself. Who am I? I don't expect people to understand me. But I don't want to be misunderstood.

I wish to be happy. But I don't believe in eternal happiness.

I yearn to be loved. But I know true love does not exist.

I love to be by myself. But I hate to be alone.

I used to think I don't matter anymore. But I AM matter.

I don't care what people think.

As long as my loved ones live. I think I can be alive too. =)

This is me.

Can you understand?

This is me.

Are you sure you wanna be with me?

That is you?

I don't understand.

That is you?

I don't wanna be with you.

=(

i don't know why but i'm not someone who would count her blessings.

but i were to do just that, this weekend would have been a lovely one for me =)


thank you for that.
on the other hand, something bad happened to my family.


and for some reason, it involves the supernatural which you can't justify..and the only thing you can do is to worry.. how sucky is that? and it just spoils the weekend..

by the way, i've just been lectured by my parents for the gatherings i've been going out to, too frequently. and for the fact that i come home late, i get twice the severity of the lecture. has something to do with attracting the undesirable. (be it men or spirits) how nice. =/

i felt my head pounding and my body significantly heavier throughout the lecture.. so much as to the extent that i had to shut my eyes and bear the unbearable.

Until i couldn't take it any further, I went straight to my bedroom sat in front of my computer and forced it out. I felt that it was destroying my life. I wanted to extort the pain and all the unhappiness that it brought that was brooding inside me. I cried it out. And i feel pain once again. My tears were warm. My hands were cold.

it is upon human sensibility that what is human in us survives.
sad but largely true.

Somehow my family is into a tough riding now..

it seems like everything is failing to (co)operate..

1. 2 weeks ago i misplaced a library book..which uptil nowi have not found and thus have not reported lost. Case unsolved. =(
2. 1 week ago my brother's modem spoilt. causing the inability of connecting to IE of 2 computers in the house.. Survived by tapping in Dad's wireless with his laptop..Got a new modem. Good. as the speed was faster..Case closed.
3. 5 days ago the toiletbowl got stuck. Cos apparently something dropped into it and got flushed down. Couldn't use that toiletbowl for 4 days until yesterday when we got a new one.. I don't like the new one as it does not look very inviting. Afterall, i sat on it for 19 years..my whole lifetime! (doesn't hurt to have a litlle black humour) ANYWAY! Case closed.
4. On sunday, water heater started leaking. Resulted in dampness and the wooden cabinet to mould. Got a new water heater which is a litre lesser than the previous one. Getting new frames for the cabinet...soon.Case closed.
5. Today morning, i was awoken when my dad asked hastily "Wad did you do to the computer last night. It's not working now." So, he was refering to his computer which he replies emails for his work. Thing is last night i was using it and it was perfectly fine, closing ONE eye for the laginess. =P It's not the video card, nor the monitor. So we are suspecting something worse...Like the hard-disk or the motherboard. Geez! And now dad is super stressed as he can't even WORK! I wish to help but i know nuts, plus the fact that it is extremely unbearable for me to hear him complain, or worse still indirectly shooting darts at me for using his comp. Case unsolved.
6. David stayed over last night and while he was ironing his shirt for work, he suddenly called out to me saying that the iron isn't working. Oh damn! I filled it up with water..unclogged the pores, switched the plug on and off, turned on the temp to max. Still.. NOT WORKING! He says he'll buy my family a new one.. Haha, but it isn't his fault to be using the iron right at the time it chooses to break down. *David is Paul's friend. Case unsolved.
7. Right at that instant, Dad exclaimed "Shit!". Ok, waddafuck! so what is it now?? GRRRRRRRR!! His fax machine plug's fuse blew. Luckily it we had a spare fuse in the house. So yea, thank god he got it fixed in a jifty. Case closed.
8. Another plug decided to blow as well. The water heater one... Dad gotta get more fuses.. Maybe we should just stock up on fuses...(and modems, and computers, and water heaters and irons and TOILETBOWLS!!!!)

On a lighter note, maybe those objects have a lifespan of approx 20 years.. (but im definitely not referring to the computer,nor the modem, nor the iron!!) ok, so that just narrows down to the toiletbowl and the water heater. WHY DO I FEEL LIKE A SUPER LOR SOR AUNTY NOW?! LIKE I CAN'T STOP RANTING!! THIS IS MADNESS! I SHOULD END NOW.

And i still can't fnd my library book...=`(

OK, sorry, I'll end now.

10th March 2007 marks the day of commissioning of Stanwin Siow Kwong Ting and Lim Hui Xiang. I have thus assembled this photo album in efforts to commemorate this special occasion and for them to reminisce those beautiful and unforgettable times they had in Officer Cadet School. I hope that my photos will portray these officers' emotions in a rhythmic composition of marches, salutes, presentation and throwing of the peak caps. Congratulations guys and enjoy!

(Stand)win Siow

To Lead, Excel and Overcome

Parade March Past

We are one, marching on.

Contingent No. 5 Commander - OCT Lim Hui Xiang

Blessing by Religious Leaders

Graduants March Off in Slow Time

Graduants Return to Parade Square

Affixing Officer Rank Epaulettes

A Proud Moment

Jubilation! - Throwing of Peak Caps

Cookie dough is the man!
or rather, cookie dough is love, man....
I would really kill for it.
Just had a KitKat Cookie Dough, I bought from Vivo's Candy Empire.


When I first bit into it, the thick slab of milk chocolate greeted my taste buds..while they were trying with a lot of effort to indulge in the sweet rough texture of the dough mixture. Result, chocolate overwhelmed the buds and strangely there was burnt sugar in the thing! Yea, as in there was CARAMEL!! Why did they put that in? I didn't expect caramel to be lingering suspiciously in my bar. And it was only towards the end that it had it's special guest appearance. Like at the bottom (considering the top as where i started) 2 inch of the bar?!
Overall, it tasted like i was munching on a sweeter KitKat that was less crunchier than the original one cos' the supposed cookie dough took up half the space of the wafer.

I would give it 1.5 out of 5 batters of cookie dough! =)

cos' i'm still in love with Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough.
Vanilla flavoured ice-cream with GOBS of Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough!!!
THAT is the ultimate kickass FOOD/SNACK I can have at anytime of the day!!



People, time to blow your minds!!

I'm too fucking pissed at how things are going on in my life. that he (2) said said things about him (5) that has affected me. that he (1) says i'm over-reacting but truth is i'm just concerned, ended up in a quarrel. that i have no idea how everything's gonna turn out between him (5) and i. that she (1) accused me of stealing from her when I did not!


I'm one BIG jumbled-up ball of mess!
But here's to the bitch in me..

gd'nite

neighbourhood.

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ok, i'm officially going nuts.

I'm sick. And tired.

In fact, very tired.15 hrs on ppt is no joke...

i want to sleep now. pls pass me my bolster.

ZzZzz.

I'm such a bad girl.

Going out in the night.

Coming home at 3s and 4s.

But can I help it that I'm nocturnal and can concentrate better at night.

And well, believe me when I say I've been doing my school work regularly.

=(

I feel misunderstood..

So much that I dreamt of myself being accused of committing a crime and crying so much, begging on my knees for a chance to be understood..

Why am i in such a situation?

laid there on the linen sheets

i'm a little disheartened.

that's all.