240 times.
Is the number of times the Hello Kitty theme song is being played each day where I work.
It's a killer, I tell you...
Today's "crowd" was better..

Was there at 930am..Cabbed...GRRR!

imagine SITTING there for approx 12 hrs a day.

"CROWD"

The exhibition is called "Hide & Seek With Hello Kitty and Friends""..And yar, Martini and I came up with our version.

We had a lovely tea-break (not sponsored by the arts house, of cos.went to a place 700m away to get it.)

And I made hot milo for the 2 of us while we sat in the open outside the house when it rained.

Phew.

After work at 10pm, I was invited to a council gathering at TCC Plaza Sing. Ok lorh, since i've not met them for so long. That council spirit..Ahhhh..Miss that so much. Was great seeing us "mature". We went to Cartel for dipper(dinner and supper).

Geez, we look tired. ok maybe I LOOK tired.. hahaha..LOL.

Sleep!

age is catching up real quickly.
i look like 21, 22 now...
Ahhh.

oh wells, 104 hours at The Arts House will make it worse.
Not to mention with all the CATS!!
Lucky for me, I've got good company and 2 girls to play with.
the failure is more or less subsiding.and guess what? I took a COMFORT CAB TO WORK TODAY.
Oh hell!
there goes my "promise"...

Anyway,i need to start looking young again..
Any pointers?? =)

classic failure..

CLASSIC!

Blame it on my luck...

So fucking pissed off at the tucks who PURPOSELY not gave way to me.

1/2 way into the lane already sia..He damn bloody cock-eyed to not see 2 L plate huh?

Somemore have to accelerate and cause me to have an immd failure.

For that, i'm gonna boycott Comfort Cab and take other taxis mannn...(at least for a week,haha)

Freaking du lan now.

I only lost 2 points in the entire circuit due to turning the steering wheel whilst vehicle is stationary.

Yea, i know..

Don't give up. Try again.

More experience....

) :

I'll heed that and just enjoy driving with my NICE instructor again.

Till the next time...

I'm gonna get you!

I swear!!!!

And it, I will have a chance to use you since i've already bought you.

P.S*Eric told me today that I look decent but I'm actually not..

But I'm taking it with a pinch of salt. And I look like a chiongster mehhh???

Besides that, I saw Shane's back today when i was late for work.

Eugene's red beret presentation is today.He was hoping that I would attend. But, i couldn't bring myself to do it. I can't face him yet..There's just so much to clear up before we meet again.And the fact that I'm going to bring up the issue of a break up..Sighs.

On a lighter note, granduncle was cremated at 2pm..

Today has been a long day.. And it's time to lay my head on my Secret Wish scented pillow.Ahh,heavenly. I'm with granduncle..

My formula for tomorrow's battle..

Focus,safety,precision,clear-headedness.

And i bought it already...

It doesn't really matter now you're gone

You never were around that much to speak of

Didn't think that I could live without you, baby

It couldn't be that hard to live alone

But I'm all, all alone again

Thinking you will never say that you'll be home again

And it's gonna be a long night

And it's gonna be cold without your arms

And I`m gonna get stage fright caught in the headlights

It's gonna be a long night

And I know I'm gonna lose this fight

Once upon a time we fell in love

And I thought that I would be the only one

But now I'm on, I'm on my own again

Thinking you will never show you won't be home again

And it's gonna be a long night

And it's gonna be cold without your arms

And I`m gonna get stage fright caught in the headlights

It's gonna be a long night

And I know I'm gonna lose this fight

Lost in your arms baby

Lost in your arms

Now I'm on my own again

Thinking you will never show you won't be home again

And it's gonna be a long night

And it's gonna be cold without your arms

And I`m gonna get stage fright caught in the headlights

It's gonna be a long night

And I know I'm gonna lose this fight

I'm gonna get stage fright caught in the headlights

It's gonna be a long night

And I know I'm gonna lose this fight

I'm lost in your arms baby

Lost in your arms

*If she hears this song, and if she feels what the lyrics say, I'm going to cry on her behalf. I want to keep her company on this long night.

Another day on earth...

woke up in the morning to receive news that my granduncle has passed on.

I knew it was coming. Recently having the vibe that someone I know was going to just decide on moving on. To the greener pastures, i guess..

Leaving the barren land of unfulfilled dreams and unspoken,taboo emotions.

We all seem to have a politically-correct answer for everything in life. Like how it's just such a natural reflex to come up wif the counter attack for every "negative" thought or action we do. For example, I say "I'm never ever going to marry.."

But according to Sigmund Freud, father of psychoanalysis", our 3 streams of conscious will inevitably interfere with the original thought.

So, I could be telling myself, simultaneously that "How can I presume at such an early stage?" and "I shouldn't say such things cos' it's socially frowned upon especially in the asian context" and then I would end off with "I'm never gonna marry for now..but it's just a thought and I will bear it in mind and be aware that this issue has been raised in my mind before..."

All these occurred to me when I saw my grandaunt weeping as she went for another look at the man's face she's seen most of her life. She is so going to miss him, now that's he's gone..

It was already heartwrenching to see such a scene, and imagining that i could be facing the exact same scenario of watching my beloved partner leaving before me..

It's like that, huh?

Life...

I'm just gonna sit back and chill for tonight..

Cuppa coffee to go along with the crazy mind. (:

Rest in peace GRANDUNCLE.

there are points in your life where you do things which you weren't supposed to.

that's the point i'm facing now.

HIM.

he says he's nice to me.i don't doubt that.but wells, nothing's ever gonna come out of it. I ASSURE YOU!!You'll agree with me too if you knew his personality. LOL.

Life with him is relaxed and chilled out. And fun. We ran in the rain.

That's SWEET.

My friend Shane..aged 25.fun-loving.social smoker.SIM.Dragger.Older brother to 2 siblings.No strings attached.JC Senior.Sends me home.Light cigs for me.Intelligent.Good to his friends.Has dreams.doesn't know himself and therefore DOESN'T WANT TO BE IN A R/S.=)

!

You left me silently. And i had nowhere to go..
Lost. Hurt. And abandoned...I wandered.
Fortunately I had my friend with me.

So, snap, snap, snap..

I felt like dirt. like the earth that has been there for you.but you..you just stepped repeatedly on me.it can't always be like that....

Colleague Shane appeared. And he was interested in photography.

or so it seems...

I wanted to just fight the unhappiness. We got along quite well..And i accompanied him for dinner. And den, smoked a few cigs..socially lahh..have been wanting to smoke but no one to smoke with.

We chilled out at Starbucks, credits to our colleague too..Jeff..hahaha.Took a few photos. Think i'm real comfortable wif Shane...as a friend lahh. =) So thanks to him.I don't feel so down over the person who chooses to remain uncontactable again. Wadeva...

he gave it a shot..not bad i would say.

i think my parents are great.

they have the means (in terms of finance and emotioal strength) to support my family.
And, it isn't easy to support just me.
I tried supporting myself, but ended up in a pile of debts.
My friends know.
haha.
And my family, on the whole. is rather spendthrift.

So i salute them.
It would take another few years for me to be laid down with such a tremendous responsibility.

Money is everything isn't it?
And emotions? nahhh, gonna take me a few decades.

yea..and time will pass me by just like a train which accelerates and that moment in time will never happen again..ever..

so much has happened..again..inexorably that is..
and obviously..so many things are going on in my head.but i won't have time to type all that out.
Because i'll have to start revising for my theatre for an exam at 2pm.

I have this sudden urge to just breakaway and dance at some club
or just simply dance at my void deck at an unearthly hour.
oh yar, before i forget, the last time i went clubbing was wif manda, shane, yc, alvyn and kelvin..ALL NY peeps..At DXO.And a big thank you to shane who invited me there! =)
And the link to the photos are here..
Alamaks! whoever brings a S3 to the clubs in her handbag??except for me..*rolls eyes.
But very accidentally i snapped a few kewl shots..of amanda. i found out that a particular shutter speed and aperture, it dilutes the fore and background. merging the 2.
The effect?
A translucent foreground with the background directly behind it.
I shall call it the dXo-Ray.
So, just imagine, amanda was my fore, and the street behind, my background.
See picture 10 to get what i mean..
I'm starting a personalised photo album(not digital)..on a black scrapbook.

So, i'll be embarking on photo expeditions. and work at the same time to support this high-maintenance freak(yes, i'm referring to myself)..basically for the following which includes things i wanna do too:

1. Holga cam wif 35mm adaptor and colour filter(pin-sharp quality ain't the coolest)
2. pending photo-printing expenditure (esp if i were to use 120film)
3. Savings plan
4. Shopping and eating with the aly* and ct
5. mon-wed drive
6. pass my final on the 23rd!
7. pack my ever-messy room
8. Think of more ways to start creative business
9. 04S3D year-end countdown chalet(30-1)
10. Meeting up (which means more drinks and teasing) with the tuition gang, rouhui,justin,albert and yu cheng
11. another meetup with rouhui and janice
12. a design layout of my room in 2nd home
13. Enrol for unlimited dance classes
14. Swim thrice a week (i feel flabby)
15. True yoga?
16. Help bro wif his job(so i can get my 2nd source of income)
17. Continue falling in love with Mr. Right
18. Organise cedar 4s gathering
19. Family trip to America in jan'07?
20. Wipe my window panes and my mirror (to have a clearer picture of everything)

That's about it. I'll blog about my lovelife the next entry..which i feel has alot to be said.hmmm...ok.Ciaoz.

"If he is rich, he is a slave to his money"