oh gawd, so now i'm feeling insecure with the security guard.
god dammit!!!

i'm so scared so so so scared..
especially now that i've gone out of shape, out of my mind, out of what i used to be..
i'm so frustrated with myself why in the world did this happen??
so it's like that now.. and what if we were to finally part one day.
will i be able to take the blow?

oh shucks.
and he is at work right now.
i hope she does not take any advancements towarda my man.
he is mine for a reason..
or many many million reasons.
oh how construed this judgement of mine.

even the puff dun make the pain go away.
i hate this.
fuck you.